1: I live for instant gratification...
Basically this means that I procrastinate. And I procrastinate HARD. Let me explain specifically what I'm talking about in this situation. I have an audition tomorrow and an audition Tuesday. And I have NO IDEA WHAT MATERIAL I AM USING. Which is great, right? Wrong. I'm freaking out a little bit. So here I am, the night before my audition, picking out songs and cuts...why do I do this to myself?
Phantoms- Rocky Horror Picture Show- Towson University Actor's Anonymous |
2: I'm honestly terrible at scheduling.
But only when it comes to theatre... I don't know why, but because of this a few things are a little messed up. Monday and Tuesday of this week are going to be ridiculously busy between planning for my trip out of town, getting in family time, class, the gym, and work. That's just two days and I'm terrified about how it's going to go.
3: I don't want to admit this, but I'm nervous for these auditions. Really, really nervous. I havent auditioned for anything in over a year and suddenly I have three. I also had a moment of (unfortunate ans stressful) clarity the other day. Two of the shows I'm auditioning for have overlapping performance dates which means that I'll have some serious decisions to make if I get offered a role.
Another thing that makes me nervous? I am theatrically blessed, so much so that it is rare for me to audition for a show that is being directed by somebody I don't know (or know well for that matter). The two auditions this week are those rare occasions. The directors know of me, but whether that's a good thing or a bad thing is up in the air. The theatre world is small and word spreads like wildfire. If you're affiliated with the wrong name or show it could ruin your chances of scoring a role. I have a few of those affiliations, unfortunately. Luckily it's not because of my actions or any show that I was in, but there are still some names that may cause some dark marks on my record. Although this is the unfortunate side of how close the theatre world is, there's also a lot of positivity that comes with it. Small world means knowing people at the audition and hopefully in the show as well. I'm the luckiest girl in the world when it comes to having beautiful friendships because of shows.
My best friend Cody and I celebrating after a successful promotional performance for The Wedding Singer |
Well. Wish me luck! Actually... don't. I'm far too superstitious for that.
Don't stress or freak out about the auditions! (I know that is easier said than done.) Stay positive and you will do great!
ReplyDeleteI remember being in the play with you in 8th grade! You were great in that! (I remember I was also always a bit of an nuisance back then... sorry) but I don't think you should stress, I bet my bottom dollar you'll do fantastic!
ReplyDeleteYour nervous energy says that you care..channel that energy in your performance, and you'll shine light the brightest star :-)
ReplyDeleteBest of luck! Does the anxiety ever go away? I think it means you care enough to put on a great performance!
ReplyDeleteI hope your auditions went well. You are extremely talented. Your blogs are always amazing too.
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